Hi my name is April i am addict/alcoholic i have been razed around alcohol and drugs the hole time growing up my dad was a addict/alcoholic so that is all i new my mom and got marred very young my mom had me 19 and had my brother at 22. My dad whould come home drunk all most everynight and beat up my mom and me and my brother whould see it all the time so my mom left him after 10 years of marrige and then my mom was partying all the time and doing drugs and sell drugs 2 that was my child hood the hole time growing up and my dad was in and out of me and my brothers life so at 13 i started drinking and i didnt like it at first then at 15 i stared running away from home so my mom called my dad telling my dad she dont know what to do with me any more she needs his help he and that i was drinking and doing drugs and he told her he didnt know what tell her so my mom put me in dss at 15 and i whould run away from the froster homes 2 but my dad whould come see me here and there then i turned 18 and i moved in with my dad to hope to have that bond but that didnt happen either i lived with him for 2 weeks and he kick me out for going to the mall so i didnt talk to my dad for a while then i moved in with my mom and step father and that didnt work either i whanted to do what i whanted to do so i was staying at friends houses then i got a phone call that my grandfather died and then i lost it and drank and did drugs even more i whould sleep with guys to have free beer and to have a place to sleep and that was in 1995 then i met this guy and i thought he was the greates guy there ever was he took me off the streets and then 3 mounths later i got pregnet and so when i was 8 mounths pregnet with my daughter i got my own place and we lived togeather after are daughter was born on aug1,1996 and it still was great then later down the road he started to beat me and that happen for 8 years intll i got sick of him hitting me so i left and i stared to party every weekend and had him take are daughter every weekend so i could go out and i live with my mom at that time intll i got my own place then i started haveing partys at my house everynight and i started sleeping with guys again so i can buy some drugs so i could get high everyday then dss came in and took my daughter away from me she was turning 9 years old and i got worse in to the partying then i lost my mind caouse they took my baby girl away from me she whent to live with my mother and then i lost my appartment so i was staying with friends again then like a year after that me and my dad started talking again and he was going to meetings so we whould come pick me up and take me with him then later on down the road i moved in with him and my grandmother and i was doing all the right things i was working 2 jobs i had 9 mounths of being sober then i moved in to my own place and i whent down hill again drinking and doing drugs then i was in and out of the rooms then i undup loseing that place 2 so i was homeless and again didnt care about nothing so i was hang out with the wrong ppl i and i was doing everything and under the sun and getting rested so my dad found out what i was doing so he called my mom and my brother and they sec me and we all whent to court for me to get help and i whent far from home i hated it but it help me alot and i had a best friend that was in the rooms he try to help me stay clean 2 he whent to court with my family for me to get help so i whent and 2 weeks after i got out i got pregnet again buy my best friend we got togeather after i came home i all ways was in love with him then i was 9 weeks pregnet and he punch me in the head so i put him in jail then about 2 weeks later my dad died it was very hard for me to loose my dad but i stayed clean thew it i told him on his death bed i whould not pick up a drink and i didnt then i met this guy that just got out of jail he was very nice he was in the rooms 2 and we were just friends and i was 3 mounths pregnet but he whanted to be with me but i didnt whant to be with no one then 2 weeks later we und up being togeather and my best friend got out of jail and he made my life a living hell but i got thew that 2 sober then on march 26,2009 i had another girl now she is all most 14 mounths old so i have been sober seens april24,2008 and i am still with the same man today that is my daughters father in are eyes he is a good man for my best friend i dont have nothing to do with him and he does not have nothing to do with his daughter but today i have my own place i have my youngest daughter and i am in my oldest daughters life 2 i see her all the time i talk to her everyday on the phone and i just got 2 years it has been a hard road but they never said it whould be easy and they was not lieing about that is for sure i love my life today and i am gratful to have what i have in my life there is no reason for me to pick up today caouse i whould loose everything i work so hard for i have a good man i have my 2 girls in my life and my family i take it every sec caouse u never know if u are going to pick up the next sec but right now i know i am not going to pick up now so that is my story so i hope i help some one out there who reads this caouse when i help ppl i am helping my self 2 and this pic is me and my 22 girls